This is for the insecure writers support group. There are two or three things that are hard for me when it comes to writing at the moment, but it's the way they interlink that makes things really tricky. The first is simple workload. Because I do this for a living, I have to write at a rate that is like doing Nanowrimo every month. It should be good that I'm getting the work, but truthfully, I've reached the stage where I've had to cut back a couple of clients just to keep things manageable.
The bigger danger that comes from this is that now so much of me is invested in writing. Writing is the main thing I do now, rather than a hobby, so when things go wrong with my writing, it's hard to keep a distance from them. Even simple things like edits or rejections feel like more than they used to, and that gets in the way, because perfectionism is one thing no writer can afford.
But what they feed into are moments when I wonder if it's all worth it. When I don't actually love writing, and then I feel guilty for not loving it. Because what's the one thing people always say when you tell them you write for a living? That it must be a great job. Must. There are moments I love, but there's a pressure that comes with the idea of doing this for a living, and it's the pressure that says if you don't love every minute, you're doing something wrong, or somehow not being grateful enough for the opportunity.